ALISON - ENGLAND - MODULE 1 INNER CHILD - 2019
When I first heard about this, I was concerned that really I didn’t have anything to contribute to this, I had a relatively good childhood, and I didn’t have any violence, I didn’t suffer any bad consequences as a child, but now I realise that some of the things that I’ve held as ideas for me, thought about myself, negative thoughts about myself have come from my childhood. For example, I feel like I’m always to blame, I feel like I’ve always got to say sorry to people and I feel guilty, I also feel misunderstood and sometimes I feel very angry that people I can’t vocalise what I want to say. I can remember feeling exactly the same as this when I was a child and I’ve now seem to have carried that forward to adulthood. I’m still going over the same issues as I was when I was a child. So being able to talk about this with Amy was a revelation really, because it wasn’t something that I’d have imagined had made a difference to my life, but I think it clearly has.
So, Amy and I talked about listening to our Inner Child, and going into ourselves, listening to what the Inner Child, what anxieties of the Inner Child has, being able to talk about that, being able to ensure the Inner Child that everything is ok. So through a structure of mediation and talking I can now return to that feeling, I can reassure my Inner Child that everything is safe and everything is OK and I can be assured that those feelings aren’t true and that’s not what makes me the way I am, it’s just something that I’ve believed in for all these years, so I now have a structure and a meditation to go forward and for the rest of my life be able to return to that, and to reassure myself when I’m anxious, when I’m misunderstood, I’m angry, that things will be OK and I don’t have to feel like that for any longer.